I still remember the words of my NSA(New Student Advisor) at my freshman orientation for college. There are mountains, but focus on overcoming the hills, not the mountains. Honestly, I’ve forgotten the exact words he said, but what he was trying to say was to take things a step at a time.
During that three day orientation, one of the things we did was sign up for our classes. We had a one-on-one meeting with our NSA to discuss our intended classes. I remember coming to that meeting, a nervous, just out of high school 17-year old. I wanted to take the second class of the physics series since I had taken a physics class in community college. Physics is known as a “hard” class and isn’t usually taken until sophmore year. My NSA gently told me that maybe I was taking on too much and that I shouldn’t take physics my first quarter of freshman year. I remember feeling so confused about what to take, and so stressed out about college that I broke down in tears during the meeting.
Sometimes we overwhelm ourselves, thinking about our overall goals. Maybe we should take on smaller things, the things we can do here and now, rather than worry so much about the big picture or huge goal that seems almost impossible. When life becomes overwhelming, this thought helps center me and somewhat alleviates the anxieties I hold in my heart, but it isn’t always enough. I find myself coming back to those negative thoughts, worry, and anxieties.
I’m still trying to learn not to beat myself up over my feelings of not being smart or motivated enough to succeed. So for now, I am trying my best to take life one step at a time and not let my pursuits get the best of me.